I'm on mah first day of the 5th try out held!! Guess what? I didn't really get enough concentration to study hard and prepare for the best............... I'm writing this, I'm blogging instead.... I promise after I publish this, I'll study I'll study I'll study, yay! Never mind -_-
Okay, back to the topic. I didn't get enough concentration for seriously :(( Could some of you left any comments or mention me (@_chamadea) some good idea or any nutrition for me to get my concentration back? Because I actually want to get the best NEM nationally. But that's just a too high expectation and I'm to lazy to actualize it :" I often only say promises without make efforts that appropriate to be called "GREAT".
Bluntly, I could be categorized as a ZUPER DUPER LAZY GIRL (*SNSD's Lazy girl back sound heard).
I sometimes feel envy to my other friends who can easily get the best concentration, and the results couldn't be called doubtful anymore, they often got the perfect score, and meeh? I only got approximately 8 or 9 :( True, that's not that bad... But for me, it's definitely not a good enough score. Why?
Yeah, I feel guilty for so many times. I haven't given my best efforts to gratify my parents with my best score. I'm tweeting, fb-ing, phone-ing, messaging, skypeing and doing so many useless works that actually I've not found them any useful, yet I still use them. Idk why. Maybe this is what called addiction.......... somebody help meh :" (*call 911)
Y'know? My parents already give me their very best. They send me to the best private school in Bekasi. They gave me handphone. They gave me laptop. They gave me internet connection. They gave me bicycle. They gave me motorcycle. They gave me my swatch that I've been craving for. They gave me..... They gave me all of the useful things I need, anything I wish. :"( But I never give them my best.. I want to give them my best, but how? I'm just a lazy living in her full of dreams world. Spend her daily lives with the useless things, etc etc. But when I have a dream to gratify them, I really mean it.
One of the things that could gratify them is get the best scores. To get the best scores, I must study hard. To study hard, I must get more than enough concentration, I mean, the full concentration. ALL OF THIS f-ing USELESS THINGS I do, only bring my concentration more down. So, I gotta go. I want to study now. To all of my readers that are still reading my writing til here. Thanks, I love you. Please pray the best for me and for all of the 17th generations!!! God. Will. Definitely. Bless. You.
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