Guiseee this is the first time I could have known what to
write on my bloogg woohooo… I wanna tell a kind of story of my life which is…. actually
a bit saddening hahaa. This is about my friends and my.. ehm my crush.
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I am so
happy to know that I have a lot of new friends recently, and fortunately I got
some close friends which are beautiful inside and outside. You know? Sometimes life
is so unfair that you can’t even understand what is actually going on or the
fuck is really happening, we just don’t know cause we’re just normal people who
can’t read every people’s mind. I used to have (almost) no friends when I was
on the 7th grade. No one wants to make friends with me cause I’m
such an annoying person, I easily cry, I easily talk about other people when
actually well the truth is there are more people that blab about me saying that
Cheryl is bla bla bla or bli bli bli idk, idc tho.. But when I realizing all
the facts now, that I was a really annoying person, I can’t really understand
how could I be that annoying! Well what’s past is past.. let’s moving on so..
yep
My new
friends are really kind to me and I try really hard to maintain their feelings,
I try to be good to them without being hypocrite (or seems like I am a really churching
girl). I feel so happy to know that they can accept me, myself, the girl-who-was-an-annoying-girl-but-is-still-feeling-that-herself-is-annoying
, I really thank God for sending me such…. A pizza friend J (lol what is actually
pizza friend means? Idk nvmnd). The outbound activity has made our friendship
become much more stronger (?) lol but well it really did. From the beginning of
our friendship, I’ve warned every one of them that at the middle of our
friendship, there will be so much troubles we will face (WE WILL FACE!!!) so I
said to them on that day that we should tell everyone of us if there’s
something that one of us doesn’t like, we have to be honest to each one of us
if there’s something wrong with one of us.. don’t wait until we ignore that
person and finally become foe L
I don’t want our friendship broken just because of a few of useless trouble
that is actually could be discussed before! And I hope that my friendship with
every one of them could be much more tight..
Finished
about the friends thingy, this time I’m gonna talk a little bit.. about my..
well yeah my crush. The problem is:
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He isn’t handsome
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He isn’t clever
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He doesn’t listed on my category
Only one thing that makes me feel mesmerized by him, it’s
because of… HIS SMILE OMG HE’S SO CHARMING I CAN’t EVEN hfff
B-R-E-A-T-H-E-E-E-E-E-E-3-3-3
Those problem listed above isn’t a big deal, the main
problem is ….. He likes my close friend… what the hell should I do?? I even
haven’t told any of my close friends about my feeling to him. When they asked
me, I always say that I currently like no one like… I don’t have any crush at
the moment while the truth is.. well hiks
I don’t know how should I tell them about my feeling because
I don’t really sure whether I really really like him or not but…. Well I like
him.
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